Avoiding complications

Me? I'm a simple girl, who likes things to be simple. To be thrown into a complication is something I totally avoid in all cost. But here I am, bored out of my mind ... and mildly putting myself in danger of that I avoid the most ... complication.

But it smells sooooo tempting, it feels tempting too. In the middle of my boredom state, I feel the rush, the need for excitement, the thrill of seduction. It feels dangerous ... yet feels so right. It's the boredom that got me in ... I'm sure. Definitely the long hours of watching HGTV and yet another rerun of CSI that drove me to this search of thrills. Oh, what crazy thoughts.

It's like standing on the edge of a cliff, with the waves crashing into the wall below. You know the jump will kill you ... or at least, mange you (then kill you). But that is the least of your worries. In fact, there is no worries at all. The sound of the crashing waves just pulls you in. You want to make that jump. You're itching to just plunge yourself into the deep sea. The only thing that stops you is your common sense, tugging from the deep haze in your brain.

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I really need to find something to do.

Memorial Weekend, 2009

Home alone. Everybody in the building seems to be out of town. I guess I'm the only who is stuck here. Don't you hate it when you have nowhere to go, when everybody else is already gone? I hate it especially now, when my hormone is raging and I'm more sensitive than normal. A friggin' fine time to have a PMS.

I wish I could do another night of sleepover at my friends', but I kinda think they'd want some time alone. Make me wish I have a lover right now, so I can call him and have rabid make out session just to spend the time. How ... pathetic. This isn't good ... I just called my life pathetic. *sigh*

Whatever. I just have to find ways to spend this weekend. Let's make a list, shall we?

1. Clean up the apartment ... channeling the clean freak in me
2. Oogle over Gerard Butler's pictures ... and be lost in his blue eyes
3. Figure out ways to meet Chris Pine ... Paris sounds like a good backdrop
4. Play The Sims ... channeling the control freak in me
5. Level up in Mafia Wars ... wow, really?

Just five? I'm really getting sleepy now. Writings not making any sense at all ...

Must ...
Stay ...
Awake ...

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Reboot

Three years after the last post, I decided to reboot the whole thing. Things have changed. I've experience a great loss and now, life is totally different. Things seem different now. And hopefully for the greater good, I have changed myself.

And so here it is ... the story of my life. Slightly uncensored, hopefully more matured, more hopeful, more insightful ... for the lack of a better term, better.

Hopefully more entertaining too ...