Why does it seems that I blog whenever that I got that lonely feeling? Yes. I know the blog's called High and Low, but I kinda feel what I write are more on the Low side. Not to say that I'm a pessimist or a Debbie-downer. I can be very cheerful and happy, and skippy (especially after a bottle of Dew). I guess the more I suffer, the more I need a release. Human nature, you see.
Anyway, what I wanted to write is that I kinda give up. Or better yet, surrendering to the will of the universe (which is just a saying, it's all in your hand, dear God). I give up. So dear God, it's all in your hand now. I'm not gonna search for a man for my future husband on the web. Ever. It has rendered me incapable of believing that I will find someone. Web dating is brutal. All you have to rely on is a picture and words. I guess what I need is some kind of chemistry with someone and just go from there. So, just to let you know, God. No more match.com or eHarmony for me.
Showing posts with label 2010. Show all posts
Showing posts with label 2010. Show all posts
12.06.2010
1.02.2010
2010
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Short number facts for 2010: it's my 28th new year, 2nd without my mom, and 3rd that I celebrate in Michigan and away from home. Unfortunately, this time I celebrate it with being single ... again.
Speaking of, maybe I should make my 2010 resolution to be not single again. But then again, I do so hate sounding so desperate. I don't know what it is, but desperate doesn't wear well on me. Should I make the resolution "to try not to be single" instead? Somehow, that doesn't sound better. Still sounding desperate ... dang.
My sister tweeted that she most envious with people during new years and holidays, because they have a complete family. I'm pastel green with envy with people that are blissfully not single. And yes, that would include my sister. She is officially off the market, blissfully in relationship. And yes, it came complete with Facebook status change. Well, not really. I'm kinda glad that she could be in another relationship after the first train wreck. So she has healed and ready to put her heart on the line again.
But that leaves me! What would happen to dear old ... uhum, young me? Is it time to throw the towel? To finally settle for whatever I can get? To give Gerard Butler up? Umm, well ... never mind that (let's hope that Mr. Butler is not vain enough to google himself up). Maybe, maybe not. I just have to wait and see ...
2010 resolution: to open my mind broader to the options out there without settling for less than great.
Short number facts for 2010: it's my 28th new year, 2nd without my mom, and 3rd that I celebrate in Michigan and away from home. Unfortunately, this time I celebrate it with being single ... again.
Speaking of, maybe I should make my 2010 resolution to be not single again. But then again, I do so hate sounding so desperate. I don't know what it is, but desperate doesn't wear well on me. Should I make the resolution "to try not to be single" instead? Somehow, that doesn't sound better. Still sounding desperate ... dang.
My sister tweeted that she most envious with people during new years and holidays, because they have a complete family. I'm pastel green with envy with people that are blissfully not single. And yes, that would include my sister. She is officially off the market, blissfully in relationship. And yes, it came complete with Facebook status change. Well, not really. I'm kinda glad that she could be in another relationship after the first train wreck. So she has healed and ready to put her heart on the line again.
But that leaves me! What would happen to dear old ... uhum, young me? Is it time to throw the towel? To finally settle for whatever I can get? To give Gerard Butler up? Umm, well ... never mind that (let's hope that Mr. Butler is not vain enough to google himself up). Maybe, maybe not. I just have to wait and see ...
2010 resolution: to open my mind broader to the options out there without settling for less than great.
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